Fear Of Your Shadow
It be the closest ones to you, make you afraid to go home
Not even here but I feel your presence, in constant fear of your shadow
It's hard for me to figure out this life on my own
Got my eyes glued to the ground, looking out for your shadow
I spent way too many years avoiding this topic, but it's been on my heart lately
So come on, let's talk about it, how a grown man can raise his hand to hit a kid
As long as there's nobody around to witness it
Did you take pleasure in robbing a child of his innocence
My only sin was not being biologically his
What's done in the dark will be brought to the light
You robbed me of my life, but tonight I'm gonna finish this
There's multiple guilty parties in this tragedy
All my teachers, the police, my friends, even family
Everyone who kept quiet and never reported it
Gave the man time to hide the truth and distort it
How can anyone involved live with themselves
Do you remember choking me against the wall until I fell
The evil in your eyes can never hide the truth indwelled
If you're noticing the sulfer smell, it's probably cause you're doomed for hell
It be the closest ones to you, make you afraid to go home
Not even here but I feel your presence, in constant fear of your shadow
It's hard for me to figure out this life on my own
Got my eyes glued to the ground, looking out for your shadow
What'd I ever do to warrant this side of you
Were you just too scared to fight someone the same size as you
You were a big man, huh? You were a big man
Just a narcissistic sociopath too insecure to be a dad
I get it, life beat you, so you beat me
Behind closed doors where you could do it discreetly
You threatened me not to say a word and somehow that always worked
No matter how much it hurt, I knew it could always be worse
The abuse was also psychological and verbal
You never once showed an affection that was paternal
Those memories I can hurdle, that pain is not eternal
One day you'll face judgment and stare into the infernal
Now I'm a lyricist with God as my therapist
Being a voice for kids who exist living with terrorists
Men like you will never be missed by the innocent
Your darkness, cause you're heartless, will fade away to the abyss
It be the closest ones to you, make you afraid to go home
Not even here but I feel your presence, in constant fear of your shadow
It's hard for me to figure out this life on my own
Got my eyes glued to the ground, looking out for your shadow
All my life was spent in fear of your violence
I only wanted guidance, but you beat me into compliance
I'm no longer hiding, I just can't keep it quiet
I stand in defiance with a voice that won't be silenced
You stood like Goliath, but I've grown like David
You defiled what is sacred, groomed a child in hatred
The fear you created has left me motivated
And now I'm dedicated to what you violated
I wonder who I'd be with a perfect family
If you didn't lay hands on me whenever you were mad at me
Would I have a self esteem, could I live happily
Due to your brutality, I'll never know that reality
I'm working through these issues, processing my abuse
I remember every bruise, tell the truth there's no excuse
I have to let these burdens loose, so I can have something new
But for scars to be removed, I have to forgive you
It be the closest ones to you, make you afraid to go home
Not even here but I feel your presence, in constant fear of your shadow
It's hard for me to figure out this life on my own
Got my eyes glued to the ground, looking out for your shadow
It be the closest ones to you, make you afraid to go home
Not even here but I feel your presence, in constant fear of your shadow
It's hard for me to figure out this life on my own
Got my eyes glued to the ground, looking out for your shadow
